Luahan Perasaan Ke? #3

It's easier to run

Replacing this pain with something numb

It's so much easier to go

Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me

The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see

Wounds so deep they never show they never go away

Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

If I could change I would take back the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could stand up and take the blame I would

If I could take all the shame to the grave I would

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past

Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have

Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back

And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

Just washing it aside

All of the helplessness inside

Pretending I don't feel misplaced

It's so much simpler than change

Luahan Perasaan Ke? #2

When I pretend everything is what I want it to be

I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see

When I pretend, I can’t forget about the criminal I am

Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but

I can’t pretend this is the way it’ll stay I’m just

trying to bend the truth

I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be, so I’m

Lying my way from you

No no turning back now

I wanna be pushed aside so let me go

Let me take back my life,I’d rather be all alone

Anywhere on my own cause I can see

The very worst part of you is me

I remember what they taught to me

Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be

Remember listening to all of that and this again

So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in

And now you think this person really is me and I’m

Trying to bend the truth

But the more I push the more I'm pulling away 'cause I'm

Lying my way from you

No no turning back now

I wanna be pushed aside so let me go

Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone

Anywhere on my own cause I can see

No no turning back now

The very worst part of you is ME

This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would

have you running from me

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Luahan Perasaan Ke? #1

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe

Sometimes I need you to stay away from me

Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know

Somehow I need you to go

Don’t stay

Forget our memories

Forget our possibilities

What you were changing me into

Just give me myself back and

Don’t stay

Forget our memories

Forget our possibilities

Take all your faithlessness with you

Just give me myself back and

Don’t stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well

Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself

Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know

Somehow I need to be alone

I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored

I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away

With no apologies